情人节

明天 农历新年初十五

2012 年新年的最后一天

时间过得真快

明天也是华人的情人节 :P

没什么特别

就觉得我的部落格 

只剩下 50% 的生命

所以我才写的

最近不写在部落格

只是在日记写一些儿事情罢了

没什么大事

练球 比赛 读书 想人 :P

我知道

我发花痴了

不用你说 我也该承认的

哈哈

他现在在古晋 

......

其实 我写在这儿也没用

没人看 没人管

有时真的会认为自己在世上是干什么用的

因为

我真的没人疼 管 关心

:)

/.\

Another Friday again

Sick of it!

I know CNY is coming soon

But 

WHY AM I STILL IN BAD MOOD?

DAMN IT!!

I'm not worry 'bout CNY

I'm not worry 'bout studies

I'm not worry 'bout my house

I'm just worry that I can't go SIBU!

I wanna go Sibu very much!

I felt like I've know Sibu even I didn't go there

I'm just like that place

And I don't know the reason 

:)

星期五

星期五

又另一个星期五
时间过得很快
我已经 17 了

怎么办？？
篮球界离我越来越远
起初我根本就没有想过
我会与篮球保持这么近的距离
真的 出乎我预料 :)

我累了
我真的累了
我不想再与朋友打好关系
我不想再找朋友诉说心事
就算我说了
那又怎样？
到最后伤心的还是我

今年
我有好多愿望
等待好时机
慢慢实现那些愿望
:)

新年 —— 10 天内
或许会发觉
怎么这么快？
的却 时间过得很快
我还不晓得以后我是什么样子
:)

我很累
我不想再过平凡的日子
我不想被朋友忽略的日子
我不想做别人的代替品
我不想总是找人的人
我需要的 只是知心朋友
我需要的 就只是知心朋友
很难吗？

我哪里不好 告诉我 好吗？
我愿意改
我愿意改
我真的愿意 :')

想哭 却哭不出来
好想知道哭的滋味 是怎样的
酸？甜？哭？还是咸？

写了那么多
心情总算好了一大半
所以 我最爱写部落格
可以诉苦
:)

再见

Fed up

Yea! Right!
I'm the noisiest one!

I'm the craziest one!

I'm the naughtiest one!

I'm the laziest one!

I'm the 'PIG' in this house!

I'm the one always compliant!

I'm the one always nagging at you guys!

I'm the one that always show BLACK FACE!

I'm the one....................

I'm the one....................

I'm the one....................

I'M ALWAYS THE ONE TO BE BLAME!

I'm just fed up!

WHAT DO YOU GUYS WANT ME TO DO?!

I HATE THIS FAMILY!!!

I TRIED TO CO-OPERATE WITH YOU GUYS

WHAT DID I GET AT THE END!?

You guys just know how to say me!

Just know how to judge me!

Just know how to say back!

HYPOCRITE! 

I know there's always a reason behind all this thing

I know! 

Sometimes I'm just sick of it!

I always ask Jesus Christ why gave me all of this!

I always ranting all the thing that HE gave me!

I always imagine I'm the only one in this house!

I always imagine I can get all the thing in this house!

NOBODY SHARE WITH ME!

NOBODY!!

But I realize that

THERE'S ALWAYS A REASON BEHIND ALL THIS

I always imagine I can help friends when they're in trouble.

I always imagine I will have friend beside me

WHEN I'M SAD

I always imagine.......................

I always imagine.......................

I always imagine.......................

I'm just fed up!!!!!!!!

I know there's the reason why God give me all of this!

I know I can't complaint all this thing!

AND

I should appreciate it, not ranting 'bout it!

I HATE ALL THIS THING!
but I still have to accept HIS challenges!

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO BE STRONG
BUT

I END UP CRYING IN MY BED EVERYDAY

I HATE THOSE DAYS!

I HATE CRYING!

I HATE I PRETEND EVERYTHING IS FINE

THE NEXT DAY

I HATE SADNESS COME TO ME ALL THE TIME!

BUT I STILL HAVE TO ACCEPT THOSE CHALLENGES!

They're just being hypocrite sometimes!

They only find me when they're having some problem!

They only find me when they need me!

They only find me................

They only find me...............

They only find me..............

WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU GUYS DOING THIS!?

I hate all of 'em that I treat them as my 

BEST FRIEND!

But they only treat me as their normal friend!

They only find me when they're in trouble!

They only come find me when they need me!
WHAT THE F*CK YOU GUYS TREAT ME?!!!!

Why are they treat me like this

but I treat them as my precious thing in the world?

Even my family!

My sisters!

My mother!

I hate my sisters! 

They also just like the other friends!

They only find me when they need me!

I hate my mother!

I hate her gamble all the time!

THAT'S WHY I HATE GAMBLER !

I hate those gambler!!!

They just know how to throw their money!

But don't know how to save $$$$$!!!

@#$%^&*

WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME???!!

BECAUSE

THERE'S A REASON BEHIND ALL THIS THING!

Of course!

Doesn't mean they don't have any goodness!

I can see all of it!

And I should say that

THAT'S THE CHALLENGE LORD GIVE ME!

I'm not hating Jesus Christ

Because He teach me how to be strong!

He teach me how to know humanity!

He teach me how to go through all this thing!
I DO APPRECIATE IT!

I'm just so fed up!

Even my so-called best friend treat me like SHIT!

I hate 'em!!!

Why do I have such lucky?

BECAUSE 

THERE'S A REASON BEHIND ALL THIS THING!

I tried to be strong all the time!

I don't wanna my friend worry 'bout me!

I don't wanna them feel sad bout my life!

I don't wanna....................

I don't wanna....................

I don't wanna....................

I always believe there's a miracle

when I done my part.

I always believe there's a miracle

when I did my best!

I always believe there's a miracle

when I help my friend go through their problem!
I always believe there's a miracle

when I follow their instructions!

I always believe there's a miracle

when I being a good sister!

I always believe there's a miracle

when I being a good daugther!

I always believe......................

I always believe......................

I always believe......................

THERE'S A REASON BEHIND ALL THIS THING!

I HATE SEEING THIS SENTENCES!

BUT I STILL BELIEVE ALL THIS THING!

I wonder why believe it...!!

I've been changed my outfit!

I've changed my attitude!

I've changed my talking style!

I've changed............

I've changed............

I've changed............

BUT WHY THERE STILL NO MIRACLE???!!

Felt like being CHEATED

Felt like being PLAY

Felt like being ..........

Felt like being ..........

Felt like being ..........

I'm so frustrated!

I'm so fed up!

I'm so confused!

I'm just sad!

Complain

First weekend of 2012

What's my feeling? 

Nothing

Just missed school so much!

So, I'm not complain anything 'bout school

BUT

I wanna complain 'bout my Biology teacher!

Damn!

I brought hope when I went to the lab

After 5 minutes, I WAS SLEEPY

WALAO!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I'm not suppose to complain this teacher

BECAUSE

She's the head of the Biology subject

But I still dislike this teacher!

I wanna change class /.\ 

Pondering how am I gonna get good result in Biology

This feeling is sucks!

Because I LOVE BIOLOGY SO MUCH!

Anyway, I trained basketball today & yesterday

EXHAUSTED /.\

I have to confess that Im really very old

Sigh! 

Wondering how am I play on the court

Get scold? or whatsoever? :')

There's tons of homework for me to do this weekend

Of course Im willing to do it

Just Im lazy sometimes :DDD

There's so much thing I wanna talk here

But Im lazy to write it down 

BECAUSE 

NOBODY WILL READ IT

T^T

I just wanna talk to somebody who cares 'bout me

But, I think that's impossible 

I've nobody to talk to

Even though I treat most of 'em my best friends

What do I get at last? ='/

I just have one, of course

She's the best best friend ever

We kidding around

I let her, she let me

She helps me, I help her

I teach her Maths, she teach me Chinese

She has all her ears when Im sad, happy, angry

I have all my ears when she's sad, happy, angry

She's my best best friend ever

She known me well

even though I don't talk

Because I show my mood in my face 

She wont force me if I don't wanna talk

But sometimes

she gets crazy because she really wanna know

But, at the same time

I still force her even though she don't wanna share her problem

HOW COOL AM I?  xD

She will tell me her problem between her and other friend

Sadness, angriness and whatsoever 

and I will just laugh at there 

OR

reply her 'OWH'

and she will like 

WTF? ARE YOU LISTENING?!!!

I still continue laughing until I know she's angry :D

She's just really nice to joke, play and laugh around

and I love her as my sister :DDDDD

DON'T DENY IT!

Cause you're the one that Im saying RIGHT NOW

And I'll not mention your name

I scare you're too shy ! 

And cannot take all this praises! :D

Form 5 life

Form 5 life

Okay! I knew it! Stop remind me! 

Damn! This life just sucks! 

My life just like go back two years ago.

FORM 3! /.\
And I know, I have to study very very hard this year.

Of course! Compare to form 3 life. -.-

First day of school was just fine :)

But, when the school finished............

Owwww~ 

I felt lost! I got nobody with me

I got nobody talk with me

I have nobody waiting for me just like last year.

Every thing seems like CHANGING! 

WTH?????

Anyway, I missed my friends a lot!

When I met them, I found that there's been ages we didn't met.

Awwww~ How does this feeling?

I just knew it! 

The precious friendship! 

I'm Form 5 now. 

How I wish I can go back to Form 4  

T^T

I missed form 4 a lot!

We gather and chit-chat

Isn't that fun, huh? :)

I think I got to go. 

I have so much thing to do even on the FIRST DAY of school.

-.-

I know right!!! >.< 

Teacher kept on saying PROJECT here PROJECT there 

I HATE THAT!!!!

And!!! DEMERIT !!! WHAT IS THIS!!????

DEMERIT SUCKS!!!! /.\
Ergh!!!!!!

Gotta go then. Bye everyone!! :) 

Love yea!!